Thirty Eight
36
37
Thirty Eight
Who me? Um, yeah.........you. So let's see how I did on 37.
Nope, not in the same job
Nope, still not in a committed relationship
Yup, still contributing at the hospital even through loss
Still not all that comfortable with the "mortal George"
Focus and fire has been questioned but it is coming back in a new way
Without question I have changed
I don't know if birthdays are much or a landmark or if the world is supposed to make more sense with every passing year. I guess it's like a new year's day or something where you make resolutions or things kinda start over - at least some might say. Again getting a year older seems fairly benign in my eyes.
I can at least pause to consider the last year and maybe how my world has changed. It's changed a good bit. Clearly professionally I am at a crossroads given that I am no longer at Calpine and have been looking for work since November. Four months on the bench has been no fun for me and it has taken it's toll for sure mentally. This will correct in time but I can look at it as (hopefully) a future husband and father. What would this mean if I was a provider in that sense? Will I have to go through this when I am in that role? Maybe that is why God has not brought me to the right person yet.
Mom is doing as well as she could right now and she has some decisions to make. I am glad that she has me in her life for another year and can see me grow and mature. Creeping up in age does make you consider your health and how important maintaining that really is. 38 years old and the worst that I can say is that I have asthma, not bad.
Talking to Nolan tonight really kinda summed it up for me. Although a little bit of time passes in our lives, each year somehow puts a lot of distance between us and the events and times that have passed. I have been back in Houston for three years and it seems like a lot more. Pops has been gone for about 13 years and it seems like 20. The constant that keeps us pushing past the years quicker than they pass is that the world keeps on turning each and every day. Nobody stops for your personal pity party. The world could care less on your agenda. God is gonna keep things moving even through a war, disaster (Katrina), or personal loss of a loved one. No matter how good or bad your momentary circumstance may be, things are still changing around you for better and for worse.
This party does not stop until he says it's over. I am glad that I got to attend the party for one more year.
I walk in the air
Between the rain
Through my self
and back again to where..........I don't know
37
Thirty Eight
Who me? Um, yeah.........you. So let's see how I did on 37.
Nope, not in the same job
Nope, still not in a committed relationship
Yup, still contributing at the hospital even through loss
Still not all that comfortable with the "mortal George"
Focus and fire has been questioned but it is coming back in a new way
Without question I have changed
I don't know if birthdays are much or a landmark or if the world is supposed to make more sense with every passing year. I guess it's like a new year's day or something where you make resolutions or things kinda start over - at least some might say. Again getting a year older seems fairly benign in my eyes.
I can at least pause to consider the last year and maybe how my world has changed. It's changed a good bit. Clearly professionally I am at a crossroads given that I am no longer at Calpine and have been looking for work since November. Four months on the bench has been no fun for me and it has taken it's toll for sure mentally. This will correct in time but I can look at it as (hopefully) a future husband and father. What would this mean if I was a provider in that sense? Will I have to go through this when I am in that role? Maybe that is why God has not brought me to the right person yet.
Mom is doing as well as she could right now and she has some decisions to make. I am glad that she has me in her life for another year and can see me grow and mature. Creeping up in age does make you consider your health and how important maintaining that really is. 38 years old and the worst that I can say is that I have asthma, not bad.
Talking to Nolan tonight really kinda summed it up for me. Although a little bit of time passes in our lives, each year somehow puts a lot of distance between us and the events and times that have passed. I have been back in Houston for three years and it seems like a lot more. Pops has been gone for about 13 years and it seems like 20. The constant that keeps us pushing past the years quicker than they pass is that the world keeps on turning each and every day. Nobody stops for your personal pity party. The world could care less on your agenda. God is gonna keep things moving even through a war, disaster (Katrina), or personal loss of a loved one. No matter how good or bad your momentary circumstance may be, things are still changing around you for better and for worse.
This party does not stop until he says it's over. I am glad that I got to attend the party for one more year.
I walk in the air
Between the rain
Through my self
and back again to where..........I don't know
posted by Booster MPS at
8:38 PM
4 Comments:
And I am glad you did too!
Happy Birthday, dear southern friend!!!
Yes, it's another year, and I know what you're thinking... "I am not where I want to be."
But sometimes I think that, every year, and especially on New Year's day. The world doesn't stop, it's true!
As I get older, I realize that, more and more, it does indeed matter what we do while we are here.
Even if it is in a tiny miniscule way.... that no one really seems to notice. That's okay.
Some of us do, though!
Happy Day, dear friend. Happy day, especially knowing I know you!
awww i'm sorry i missed your special day. i hope that you had a great birthday!!! it's good to reflect and find the goodness in the past year then to look forward and see the changes you want to make.
i didnt realize our birthdays were so close together. pretty cool. of course i'm older than you...*sigh*
i hope your day was a special day!
The numbers are just a way of keeping score and not really one of the more important until you crest 70 or 80.
I hope you enjoyed the day and realize who special each and every day is.
Happy Birthday George! I hope you had a great day. We would love to see you!
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