The Balance

For the most part I was a good kid. I never really got into a lot of trouble, or I should say, serious trouble. Probably the thing my parents and relatives rode me the most about was just being a respectful kid and doing the right thing. But I remember a lot of times that they were mad at me. Sometimes they were really, really angry. I can step back from that now and see it probably was not anger so much as just a fierce disappointment. That's kinda where I am now.

I am kinda mad. Yeah, mad. That does not really sound right - sorry world. Ok, so maybe it is that same fierce disappointment that I am feeling right now. I think that when you can care about somebody so much that when they let you down, it hurts you. I glad that mom is ok, but things could be so not ok right now. this was a close call. She will continue to heal and get better with time so all is right with the world but man am I disappointed. End of the world, no. Just gotta not be so......intense I suppose about all of this. I suppose all of this is a bit more complicated because I am helpless from where I am. Chill and relax because we all make mistakes, right George? Right. It's not that bad I suppose. I hope. (trying to be positive here......)

Parents like kids can make ya just scream "ARRRRAAAAARRARRRRRGHHHGHHHH" sometimes. Maybe it's not all that bad if we learn from it all.