Looking Forward
Just about one down and eleven more to go.
I've been thinking about this since last week and I think I have figured out what I have been feeling since the start of the year but could not put my finger on. I have felt down in a winter blues kinda way - not a lot but just a little. Sure there are some things on the horizon very near term that are concerning......very concerning, but that has only been part of it for me.
Days come and go and they flow into the months. And the months give way to years slowly but surely.
Time passes.
I age.
I grow.
Life happens.
No matter how much I think that "a new year" does not really affect me, as time marches forward it cannot help but magnify the life I live. There are the natural questions of life and achievement that come up. After all, the only way I grow is through looking inward. So as a new year enters, that process just has to happen as I look forward to the months ahead. So what if I don't care for the emptiness of resolutions, there is something new ahead of me and I can't help but to find a way to get my arms around it.
So as 2007 has started I can accept that it is ok for me to wonder what the year will bring. It's ok for me to wonder where I will be a year later. It's ok for me to be concerned that hopes, dreams and goals might be unrealized. It's ok for me to anxious. It's ok for me to anticipate all the good things in the year to come that I could never imagine. It is ok for me to think here I am AGAIN. It is ok to wonder will I be here AGAIN next year. It's ok seek growth out of my everyday stable routine. It is ok to want MORE.
What will be will be. I now see that it's just my way of expressing anticipation of......well of who knows what. It's human to do this. It is completely natural to do this at the beginning of the year.
I accept this, embrace it, and look forward to what God will bring tonight, tomorrow, next week, next month, this year, next year and for the rest of my life.
I've been thinking about this since last week and I think I have figured out what I have been feeling since the start of the year but could not put my finger on. I have felt down in a winter blues kinda way - not a lot but just a little. Sure there are some things on the horizon very near term that are concerning......very concerning, but that has only been part of it for me.
Days come and go and they flow into the months. And the months give way to years slowly but surely.
Time passes.
I age.
I grow.
Life happens.
No matter how much I think that "a new year" does not really affect me, as time marches forward it cannot help but magnify the life I live. There are the natural questions of life and achievement that come up. After all, the only way I grow is through looking inward. So as a new year enters, that process just has to happen as I look forward to the months ahead. So what if I don't care for the emptiness of resolutions, there is something new ahead of me and I can't help but to find a way to get my arms around it.
So as 2007 has started I can accept that it is ok for me to wonder what the year will bring. It's ok for me to wonder where I will be a year later. It's ok for me to be concerned that hopes, dreams and goals might be unrealized. It's ok for me to anxious. It's ok for me to anticipate all the good things in the year to come that I could never imagine. It is ok for me to think here I am AGAIN. It is ok to wonder will I be here AGAIN next year. It's ok seek growth out of my everyday stable routine. It is ok to want MORE.
What will be will be. I now see that it's just my way of expressing anticipation of......well of who knows what. It's human to do this. It is completely natural to do this at the beginning of the year.
I accept this, embrace it, and look forward to what God will bring tonight, tomorrow, next week, next month, this year, next year and for the rest of my life.
posted by Booster MPS at
7:59 PM
2 Comments:
growth and learning have to account for something right? i look back to where i was 6 months ago and specifically remember saying "by christmas i'll have accomplished X." well, christmas has come and gone, X hasn't happened. i feel like my back wheels are spinning but i'm up on blocks and not allowed to go anywhere. full of potential, empty of all else. please keep growing and learning. show me that it's all worth it. don't let me look back 6 months from now and still be in this place...
I always have a life plan. Sometimes I get where I'm suppose to be or where I think I need to be, other times not so much. The important thing is we keep moving forward every day. RIGHT?
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