Halloween Weekend in Austin
Another cool weekend in Austin with Andy and Angie. I am really blessed to have those guys as the type of friends that will open their home to me. I always have a great time there and it seems to have become my spot for a quick get away. The best part of the weekend was getting to see Nicole and again and catch up with her. Picked her up from the airport and we went to The Oasis for lunch. As always a great view of the lake. I kind of thought that our conversation would at some point focus on us and where we are. A more serious take of two people getting to know each other again but it did not and that was ok. We just were together. It felt really good to have that level of comfort with her. We will see what happens from here. Could I live in NY? Could I do that for her? Certainly nowhere near those decisions right now but it still crosses my mind.
What the fuck am I doing at work. I am so un-inspired. I need to dig deep into something because I refuse to go through the motions.
Tomorrow is Halloween and I hate it. I don't like it. I don't fit in. I hate dressing up. I just want to be me.
I need an anchor. Something to come back to. My faith should be enough but right now it is not. I know this is wrong but it simply is where I am right now. I need a constant in this changing world.
posted by Booster MPS at
9:50 PM
4 Comments:
I know exactly how you feel.
I constantly need a "constant" too. Sometimes faith isn't enough. And I hate the idea of that...
I mean, it **should** be enough, right?
Anyway, embrace the day and silly holiday as best you can. See it throught he eyes of a child... that helps me when I am feeling this way.
Oh, and thanks for the music!!!
I loved hearing it again but this time through your perception of it!
Hugs!
Oh my can i relate. I feel like my life is twisting out of control. Everyday is filled with one more thing I need to do that isn't getting me any where but out of here. What am I thinking? I'm quiting a job to have no job!
Moving to another city for another person is something I will never do again. Lesson learned. Not unless were married and I can take half his shit. NO WAY. I hope you make the right decision for you.
I don't like dressing up for Halloween either. I want to just be you too!! HEHEHEHE!
Love ya darling.
I was going to say something, then I read fame's comment and thought "Fuck! That's scary!" (Sorry Fame, but I'm nothing if not honest.)
Anyway, the world can sometimes feel like it's spinning because.. well, it is. But you seem like one of the most grounded guys around.
Sometimes not talking and just being with someone is more than the talking itself. Y'know?
Hope all is well...don't think too much about life...
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