Detour
Well the Thursday plans have changed and unfortunately will have to be delayed until mid September because of all my travel. Got the call yesterday for an interview with Fortis so I will be there instead. This should be an interesting opportunity to talk to these guys but I have a lot of caution that gives me pause. They have been through a lot recently and the transition to the new company is still in the works. Also some of the leadership over there has been controversial. But, I always do well in the suit and tie and I don't think things will be different tomorrow.I have really been thinking a lot about what the future will be for me at the current job. I just don't know. I applied for promotion to Director Structuring for my group. Well truth be told, everyone in my group has left but me so I am a group of one. I think I have favor with my boss and conventional wisdom would have me selected as I am the best qualified in all of the company. I'm no fool though. I would certainly have to add people to the group IF I am selected. The problem is that with this promotion it would potentially put my salary such that many other companies might pass on me. Golden handcuffs suck! This would lock me in with a company going through turmoil which I am unsure of. But then there is the financial benefit.......just gotta think this through as there is a hell of a lot more than dollar signs at stake.
This just all comes back to me wondering what is the end game for me professionally? Where am I going and at what point do I say, "George has achieved enough." I don't know when that is as I have always been so driven. There has always been a goal for me to reach towards. Is energy the industry I really find happiness in or is there something else for me? Is there a business opportunity for me to own myself?
I want the answers and I want a crystal ball that tells me "what I am supposed to be doing" and "what is the right path." You only go around once, and I want to make it count. Ultimately I want to position myself to be a provider for my family (whenever that happens) and be secure.
God, it's in your hands. Lead me, I have followed you for 36 years and it's worked out. Let's see how it ends.
posted by Booster MPS at
10:58 PM
4 Comments:
At the end of the day it can't be all about the money - this I learned the not quite so easy way. It's got to be about the difference you make. To yourself, your family, and others. At the end of the day, have you strived, have you changed? Are you a better person at the end of the day than you were at it's start?
Sigh, so much of what you say I think about too... am I on the right track? How do I really know?
What if I make the wrong decision and 5 more years go by and I have gotten no where?
It is true... it isn't often all about work or money for me, but rather trying hard to improve family relations and friendships.
I know I can make a small difference there. You do that too!
I can tell!
Good luck, George!
And no, there are NO crystal balls, no magic wands, no magic 'switches'.
Believe me, I've looked...!
;)
ps Word verification:
karmosq
Long hand for KARMA????
Good things happen to good people-I think you'll be ok.
I love how you ended it with a prayer of sorts. You are one of a kind Booster.
Phain, you are so right. It is about so much more than dollar signs. I want to be better. I want to be the best. Not at my job, at life.
Em, help me figure it out...karma, I like that.
I agree Kimmy, it will certainly be ok. It always is. I have been blessed with a really rich life and I could not have planned it better if God had given me a pen and paper.
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