Forgiveness

One of the best and most rewarding parts of this past weekend on the Cape was an apology. A simple apology made it all worth while.

There have been a ton of times that people have pissed me off. Even worse, I have a list of times that I have been disappointed and let down by friends. At times it has been an out right betrayal of everything that I am by somebody that I considered a brother or sister. I will be the first to say that there have been plenty of times that I have been on the other end and hurt somebody dear. I too have fallen way, way short at times. All said, when things like this happen, how often do we get a chance to take it back? How often do we get a chance to make it right? How often have we passed by opportunities to step up and simply say I am sorry. Someone told me once that three things in life are free: thank you, I am sorry and please. How true but how often do we pass on the chance to make the wrong right.

I got this chance. Nikki was there this weekend and I had a chance to speak to her one on one for the first time in say 5 years. We dated about the same time that I moved back here after grad school. I broke up with her and broke her heart. I made a decision that I thought was right at the time to not be with her and it deeply hurt her. Although I did not disrespect her in any way, it still remains that I hurt her and never really had a chance to push back from the emotions of the moment and simply say, "I am sorry". The fact remains that I hurt her and that is all that is important. So I got my chance. Even more, I made my chance which was not easy but I am glad that I had a chance to clear the space between us. We even spoke for a moment and caught up after that which was nice.

So there she is. Swinging. So beautiful. I will say it again, Nikki I and so sorry that I hurt you. I probably should have gone over and done some pushing but I didn't............